I have a three month old and I find myself doing a lot of nothing these days. Don't get me wrong, I'm not harping on motherhood. It is, in fact, a very interesting career and I'm learning new things daily about myself, my husband and this new addition to our family. But...lately I've noticed how much time in my day is taken up by sitting, pacing or bouncing:
I sit to nurse Triston.
I sit in front of him while he's in his bouncy chair and talk to him.
I stand above him when he is in his crib talking jibberish to me.
I hold him in my arms and bounce him when he is fighting falling asleep.
I stand over him for a billion minutes waiting for him to fall asleep in his crib so I can take the pacifier out. And once that is done successfully, I sit stand there in case he stirs and looks to see if I'm there. So I just stand there.
Last week I realized how many hours of my day equate to doing 'nothing'. But I'm raising a human being! I'm raising a boy who will become a young man who will later contribute his mind/talents/gifts to this world. And all of this nothing that I'm doing will eventually add up to something great.
Those of you mothers of toddlers reading this must be laughing and warning me to, "enjoy it while you can because before you know it you won't be able to sit still for a single second." And I hear you. I know I can't prepare myself enough for what's to come later down the road....many many more learning moments. But for today, I'm attempting to be content in doing a lot of nothing....with the understanding that it truly is quite a big Something.
Happy Thursday world. Make it a good one.
